I just walked outside with the dog. As she romped around looking for just the right spot this night, I looked up. In my part of the world it’s very dark out at night and the view of the heavenly places is quite stunning. I could see galaxies and constellations. Breathtaking!
“And there is no creature hidden from His sight, but all things are naked and open to the eyes of Him to whom we must give account.” Heb. 4:13
This scripture came across my viewing earlier today. When you take the time to really read His word, sometimes you get a spiritual “smack” from God. For some reason, this was one of those scriptures. I’m attempting to lose weight (oh the holidays were fun, too much fun!) and just at the moment I got up to go out with the dog, I realized I’m hungry. Suddenly food started tempting me. “What can I find in the refrigerator? Oh, how about some popcorn? Yes, popcorn would do the trick.” The truth is this kind of thinking is what got me into the mode of having to work on losing weight again in the first place.
Why do we find ourselves rationalizing in such moments? It would be so easy to just give up and state, “tomorrow I’ll start”. The enemy’s taunting is so easy to fall into. And yet, something in looking up at the night sky caught my attention and steered me toward thinking about how small I am and how big He is. How can He keep all of us straight? He’s there watching over me, and you, in all this expanse and yet we matter!
I can attempt to fool myself into thinking that having some popcorn tonight won’t be the end of the world. I’d be right in that assumption, it wouldn’t be. But me trying to fool myself into believing that fudging on the food tonite won’t be any big deal is based on the fact that I’m pretending that God doesn’t know. Not three days ago, I asked Him to help me lose the weight, that I needed Him to help me get past the urges and fudges. I can pretend He doesn’t see my indiscretions but He does. And He cares.
Part of my growing in Christ is dependent on how I treat such times. I can pretend that the Lord is just one of the good ‘ol boys and it doesn’t much matter to Him if I’m heavy or thin. There is probably some truth in that. However He cares about every little thing under the heavens. For me, in this particular moment, eating indiscriminately is sin. And how I handle this has a bearing on what He will trust me with in other areas of my walk and ministry.
So, tonite I’m not having popcorn. Instead, I think I’ll go out and look again at the stars and try to get my head wrapped around the fact that even though I’m so, so small, I still matter. And that’s the truth! Care to join me in savoring that one?