What a week. Full, overflowing. I don’t think it could have possibly been packed any fuller than it was. My spirit wanted to scream, “save me!” as I went through the days, one foot in front of the other. As I sit here today, I’m grateful for a day to totally unwind. No appointments, no obligations, just quiet here in the house. Ahhh, wonderful.
I’ve been learning some things these days. God is keeping me in the story of Elijah in 1 Kings 19. It is turning into a watering hole for me. You know, one of those places in the Bible that you go back to over and over again because there, in the midst of the words, is life, refreshment, power, instruction. I was caught unaware of my need to rest in this Scripture yet as I read these words, I keep receiving. I love it. As in this story where the Lord asked Elijah in chapter 19:9, ” What are you doing here, Elijah?”, I find the Lord asking me similar questions.
“What are you doing here Linda? What is happening in this particular space, place, time in your life? Where are you going girl? Why are you rushing around so much? Come and rest with me here. Eat a little, drink a little. Spend some time with me, won’t you?” That’s the invitation I’m hearing from my Lord.
I’m in a transition space in my life. There are many changes coming. In my past, it was just these kinds of transitions that could totally undo me. “Oh my gosh, what am I going to do now? I can’t just sit around here and wait for things to happen, I’ve got to make something happen!” That was my mindset. If it’s not unfolding right before my very eyes, then by golly, I’m going to pull up my sleeves and get something going on my own. This comes from world views like I am the master of my own destiny, nobody is looking out for me except me, and if something is going to happen, then I have to be the one to make it happen. I would guess that God sits on His throne, shaking His head, and saying to Jesus and the Holy Spirit, “oh no, she still doesn’t understand, does she?”
I’m working really hard to try and listen for the still, small voice of God. I hear God in other ways like pictures, through my writing, etc., but I’ve not practiced much in listening for His voice. I’m trying to change that right now. I want, more than anything, to hear my Master’s voice. I’m realizing I need to bring it all before Him and actually ask for His wisdom and perhaps even His permission about many, many aspects of my life. Why? Because I can see the mess of my past ways in not bringing it all before Him! I’m just beginning to understand the meaning of the word surrender in my life. Oh yes, this is a learning time. I think I’ll go get another cup of coffee and sit by the watering hole for awhile. Where are your watering holes? Run there…God is waiting for you!