Who is running your life?

A visit from friends prompted a revelation about a period in my life that I would just as soon forget about.  We started talking about dreams, goals, things we’d like to accomplish.  It was great.  Good conversation and many morsels to think about.  I pray that our time was as encouraging for them as it was for me.

Later, after our friends had gone home and my husband and I had a chance to sit down and talk, we discussed a time many years ago when I was attempting to put a dream into action.  The outcome?  The dream is still a dream today.  What shocked me most was a new revelation the Lord gave me about that time period and its relation to right now.

This dream of mine was put into gear almost 25 years ago.  I actually did something about it by stepping out and putting some action behind my desires.  I was making progress and then no less than six major losses occurred in my life in the period of six months time.  I was devastated and I didn’t realize the impact of those losses until much later.  Five years to be exact.  By then, the damage had been done and the dream had died a quick death.

The Lord opened my eyes to see this right now.  Sad to say, He showed me that I have allowed the enemy of my soul to win in an area of my life.  “ Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour”  1 Peter 5:8 (NKJV).  I was shocked to say the least.

A dream began to be realized 25 years ago.  I worked at it for over two years.  The enemy came and threw some roadblocks into my path and unfortunately, my focus turned to the roadblocks and I was toast!  I had not understood until last night the hard facts:  I took the enemy’s bait, allowed them to completely overtake my focus, got caught up in the emotions of the events, and allowed my dream to die.  As I consider the damage, I’m very sad at the outcome.  If I had been able to overcome, I might be sitting in a very different place today.  If only…

As much as I hate to admit defeat, I’m grateful that the Lord has allowed me to realize this bit of information, even these 25 years later.  It rather gets my dander up…in fact, more than my dander has been affected!  I’m finding something new rising up inside of me.  Determination.  I’ve been blinded for 25 years, but no more.  The dream is surfacing once again and time for me to take a good, hard look at it and decide whether it deserves my attention once again, or was it simply a passing desire.  Time will tell.

My prayer is that you might consider where you are in relation to your dreams.  Understand that the enemy will do anything to stop you from realizing your dreams and goals, especially if they have something to do with your God-directed paths.  The enemy doesn’t want you to make it.  Period.  Is it time to take back some territory lost?  I’m thinking so.

2 thoughts on “Who is running your life?

  1. I love reading your posts, Linda. So thought provoking. And yes, the one today brought back to mind dreams of my own that I have allowed to be side-lined by the wiles of the enemy. I too am in process of resurrecting those dreams, but for some odd reason, am approaching them tentatively, with doubts and fears. I guess I haven’t gotten mad enough to develop the same determination that I read in your writing. I need to commit to praying about this and seeking guidance from the Lord. Thanks for your blog. I am so proud of you for doing it, and enjoy getting to be a part of your life as you share your heart here. Blessings.

    • Thanks Renee. Many feelings you’ve expressed here are mutual. I want to encourage you to just go for it. You have everything you need to accomplish those goals…opportunity, time, intelligence, understanding. I dare you to get mad, downright MAD at the enemy for waylaying you. You have so many things going for you. I’m excited for your future because I KNOW you’re going to get what the Lord has been whispering in your ear for so long. Dare! I’m behind you…let me know if I can help in any way! Hugs…L

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