When does it happen, the transition from glory to glory? You know, that place where you don’t exactly understand how God does what God does in your life. Does anyone else have moments when you wonder just exactly how God transforms you? Have you had experiences in your past when you were doing something that you didn’t want to do, you prayed and prayed about it, seemingly praying to an unhearing Lord? And then one day, when you least expect it, you realize you’ve changed. It’s like looking up into a July 4th night and suddenly out of the darkness shoots this unbelievably beautiful burst of color and sound that you can feel way down in the pit of your stomach. Wow, where did that come from?
A number of years ago I decided to quit smoking…yet again. I’d quit numerous times before. I had begged God to deliver me from this habit. I cried. I bargained. I did everything I could think of but no matter how hard I tried, I could not quit smoking. To say I felt like a failure is the understatement of the century. I struggled with smoking for almost the entire time I smoked, all 25+ years (unbelievably I didn’t keep track of when I finally quit!).
One day, I decided this was it, I was trying yet again. A number of co-workers in my office had quit smoking recently and I figured this was a perfect time to jump on the bandwagon too. With them not running outside at break time to have a smoke, I knew there would be others I could commiserate with. I have to admit that I used a nicotine patch to help me, but at this point in my life, I figured that anything that might help would be just fine. There were struggles some days, but somehow it happened. I quit smoking! It’s been about 15 years now and I’m astounded when I think back on this. After struggling for over 25 years, I was finally a non-smoker.
As I think back on this, I realize that I finally surrendered to God about my smoking habit. I quit bargaining. I quit trying to muster my willpower. I quit trying to make God guilty for not answering my prayers. I quit being mad at God for not helping me. I quit. Period. And although I never heard the words, I figure God said something like, “well, I’ve been waiting for this day Linda, for a long time. Now I can help you.” And it was about that easy. Only it was hard!
I think I’m in another of those places. Thankfully this isn’t such a gut-wrenching place as that was, but this place in my life has been no less frustrating. This one has had to do with my purposes. You know, the scripture a lot of us cherish; Jeremiah 29:11, all about God’s plans for us, to give us a future and a hope. I’ve hung my hat on this scripture for many years. It’s been prophesied over me, prayed over me, and used as encouragement for me. And I’ve been waiting. Patiently (most of the time). “I want a future and a hope Lord. Can we get on with this please? I’m not getting any younger you know!”
I’m finding myself in this place of transition. I didn’t see it coming and I’m not quite sure when it started. But I’ve been writing a lot about waiting, expecting, surrendering. And today, I can see something has changed. The recent dream of giving birth to triplets (December) seems to have broken something loose in the heavenly realm and I can sense shifting going on in my life. To say I’m excited doesn’t quite cover it. No, I’m more in awe of what is happening. I feel more like the clay that the potter is molding and a sense of the vase or vessel is beginning to take shape in my mind.
I learned quite awhile ago that when I hear from the Lord or when something happens in my life that I’m certain the Lord has orchestrated, I’m obligated to share with others. God has been teaching me that movement or change in me is a sure signal that movement or change is happening in the lives of others too. Why? Because we’re all a family and when God is transforming, He’s moving in all our lives in one way or another. So, I want to encourage you to look up! God is at work in your life. He’s all about wanting to transform us, moving us from glory to glory. If you’re struggling right now, know that He’s working on the solution, the provision, the change. It’s happening, whether you’re aware of it or not. Maybe tomorrow you’ll realize that something is shifting in your world too. I hope so. I’m praying so. If you see it, write about it here. Let’s confirm that God is at work in our lives!