It’s been one of those days. I had a plan. It was a pretty straight lineup of things. Tonight as I look back over the day, the path, instead of a straight line, took on the look of a crazy squiggly line, up, down, around, and around, up and over and back again.
Once again I am with my elderly parents, 500 miles from home. My Mom had a heart attack a week ago. She’s home again thankfully after six days in the hospital. God has been so faithful in healing her, in holding my Dad in His palm, and in lifting me up by the prayers of the saints back home in my church. It’s been a difficult week but we’ve made it.
This morning we ended up back in the emergency room. Mom wasn’t sure about sensations on her right side and we had to make sure we weren’t dealing with a clot. After four hours, numerous blood tests and a EKG she was released home: all was fine.
Well, you know or can imagine, I’m sure, what this morning might have felt like for my Mom, Dad and me. All my plans for the day went flying out the window as fear attempted to rush right into each of our minds.
Being in a different town, away from my husband, home, and my church family leaves me in a sometimes precarious place. More than once this week I’ve had to face issues I’ve never dealt with before. In spite of moments when everything in me wanted to either panic or cry uncontrollably, I got through. Wait. Correction. In spite of those moments GOD strengthened and brought me through!
Tonight I decided to attend a prayer and worship time at a church we attend when we are in town at my parents’. I attended last Sunday when they announced this special time but evidently I got the time wrong – I arrived an hour early! Sigh.
I sat down to listen to the worship team practice and decided to take a look at my devotional today, the one I missed due to rushing off to the emergency room right after breakfast. I was met with this verse:
“Oh, fear the Lord, you His saints! There is no want for those who fear Him.” Psa. 34:9
Tonite I’m realizing that fear has been trying oh so hard to throw me off track. Every day for the past eight days I’ve been confronted, in one way or another, by fear. So many questions and doubts, all laid into my Lord’s lap because I don’t know where all this is going for my Mom.
No, I must wait for each day to unfold as it will. And here is where I must choose. Will I fall into fear’s waiting arms? No, not this time satan! I know where that path leads – more fear and torment.
Instead I’m choosing to fear God. I know He’s not happy when I succumb to the enemy’s ploys. Why? Because He has provision for me, no matter what I face. Tonight I’m choosing to fear my God, as one of His beloved children. And what does the Word say about that? Back to Psalm 34, where David tells us that there will be no want for those who fear the Lord.
That’s all I need tonite. I’m not going to be tripped up by fear! Instead, I’m here with fellow saints, getting ready to worship our God. His provision is here tonite, just as it has been all week long! Accept my offering Lord, of my love to you as I lift my voice in worship to You!
Oh, it’s so good to be in the house of the Lord! And it is here I’m provided for in whatever comes my way.
Fear, the what ifs of life are always trying to draw us backward into not trusting God. I think of the Scripture…perfect love casts out fear. If we could perfectly love Him our fears would vanish. Good word Linda.
Thank you Wanda. Praying for that perfect love! 😊. Trusting Him along with you…Linda